Saturday 24 November 2012

Random Scrambling!

     A loud snore comes from my Grandma's room, the ticking of the clock resonating in the living room, the only sound apart from the thudding of my laptop keys. A stray yellow light makes its way into my room, the only light apart from my Desktop light. It's the middle of the night and I am more awake than I was during the day!
      Away from the crass cacophony of the day, I cherish the mellifluous silence of the night, when I can hear the honking of the train borne by the winds, from the railway station 3 kms away, right to my doorstep. It is the time for self contemplation. Well, to turn into a self proclaimed philosopher.
      Recently I heard a few lines with stuck with me,
 " Din ke ujiyaare mein na kar koi aisa kaam ki raat ke andhiyare mei neend na aaye,
    Raat ke andhere mei na kar koi aisa kaam ki din ke ujaare mei muhh chpata fire! "
...And I muse over my day...Getting up with the sound of Dadiji's morning aarti. That furious solving of Differential Equations (grRRHhhh!!) of which I am likely to have no use after 25th Feb, the preparation for mock test for CLAT, the hour spent in traffic jam (another grrRRh!), the I-am-interested-in-talking-to-you-chat with pados wali aunty! The hunger, and Mum's amazing pasta with garlic bread (wooooOOOooow!). What a day!
       And then the night waltzes in, in so intriguing a fashion, the sun sets, and the sky is suddenly shrouded with a dark blanket. Stars look like torch light thrown by some space creature! The world sleeps whilst I think of all possible random things, school, friends, sister, clothes, crushes (yup! it is plural!), and a lot of philosophy.
      There are days when we are in the self deprecating mood, pity for our own selves, that's what we often thrive on. Till we see someone with way less, and suddenly we are infused with an inspiration. Prayers are said in gratitude, prayers are said for the less fortunate (who well, just helped us feel better about our lives), and then the night passes away, The next morning, we get up late. Find our uniform crumpled, our lucky pen missing, and we miss the bus. It's back to being the most pathetic life ever. once again, we are consumed in self pity!
       But there are also the days we have our highs, our smile couldn't have got bigger, life could not have treated us better. All smiles, we are ready to give a Miss Universe speech then!
   

    Equanimty???
Not something we know. We are teenagers who have highs and lows in the same day, sometimes even at the same time! We are teenagers who can laugh at PJs and make faces at a witty remark. We pretend to know stuffs we have no clue of. We say we hate gossip, and yet can indulge in it all day long! We are always fretting about our looks, (too fat!/ too thin!) (too pointed a nose/ too broad!) (too fair/ too dark!) (too tall/ too short!) and bad hair days can make us shun the world and everything around. You can look at us and say in that familiar tone, "Teenagers (sigh)!"
"Hell yeah! We are t(h)ee nag(g)ers!"

Friday 13 July 2012

Expectations Unlimited!


The billion expectations, I feel so crushed
Under their pressure, my spirits hushed
I am trying, but I fail to deliver my best
A strange fear haunting near each test
The ‘what-ifs’- they scare me, make me fear
If I fail, would they understand or leer?
When I succeed, with pride they stand
If I fall, will they outstretch their hand?
With their hopes rising, my heart bests faster
An inexplicable terror becomes my master.
Failure has so begun to haunt each attempt
To give up even trying I feel a strong tempt.
But I have to continue the journey everyday
The ghost of fear I will have to slay
Their expectations, I do not know if I’ll meet
But I promise: my dreams shall not be beat.
I will struggle; I will tussle, every day every night
Till my dreams will see the day’s light!

Friday 15 June 2012

Bring it on!

Hello everyone, specially one!
        If the sun could have shined at night, it would have been a sunny night tonight! I don't know about all of you, but for me, that first comment on my blog, (totally unexpected!) has me feeling so elated, I'm doing a strange dance in my room right now! (I guess, the exclamation mark after every sentence is clear testimony to that!) I have to get up early tomorrow (and study), and it is already pretty late. So I suppose I'll have to postpone a proper post for now. But this one's just to let the world know that JustAnotherGirl is here to stay! The Blue Periwinkle This one I owe only to you!
Bring it on,
JustAnotherGirl!
PS: This was written a night and a day back! but looks like I had forgotten to click on Post! :D

Tuesday 12 June 2012

A close too soon :( :)

Hello to anyone who is listening! :)
I have been browsing through my blog and I realise how it comes across as an unplanned, hap-hazard and meaningless one! Too much blabbing, and yet it lacks the butterfly-ish look of a blabber blogger!
I come across as someone confused, tangled in the knots within, a girl TRYING to be the next big thing. Yesterday, I was serious, and yesterday I was random, and yesterday I was talking basically nonsense! And that is who I actually am! You can't make head or tail of me, else I won't be me!
I am the kind of person who'll be serious with teachers, formal with acquaintances and downright crazy with close ones! Probably, that is why I am more temperamental here. I am used to changing my roles according to the people around me. Here, I have no one (practically!) and perhaps, I cannot decide which one to be here. I know what you're going to say. It's obviously going to a Just-be-yourself!
But this muddled up girl is me...So I figured out something today...Fiction, I can't write, and my life isn't juicy enough for anyone to care. It kills my ego to say so, but I don't seem to be cut out for this. I hate to give up, but there seems no point in going on...So looks like this is my fourth and last post in the bloggers world!
However, in the unsuccessful attempt of fulfilling my daydreams, I came across a wonderful blog. And if you're regretting visiting my blog, read this amazing blog to make your day!
Bidding adieu,
Keep smiling (I sure always am, well mostly at least!),
JustAnotherGirl!

Monday 11 June 2012

Another beginning, hopefully better!

Hello again!
Tonight I'm on a roll! :D
However, 0 comments, 0 followers, that, well, just sucks! So I was out there trying to grasp the tricks of the trade. Here's what I learnt tonight!

What you shall now read, is the result of tedious research and a lot of hard work. A lot of information there is confidential. Hence, before continuing to read, you must swear to secrecy. In case of any default, you are liable to punishment as may be decided by the Whimsical Court of ApprehensivelyYours.

Keys to becoming a successful blogger: 

1) Make your blog look good (Whatever they may say, looks DO matter!)
2) Bring out your madness!!! Yo! yo! yo! (Cause no one wants drab 'n' dull! Damn, while putting up those previous posts I had to work so hard to be all uptight, phew! finally I can write like me!)
3) Tag important bloggers in your post (For this, I would like to extend a huge thank you to Nihareekaa....Please don't sue me for copyright issues...(I'm a huge fan ...*drooling eyes* (that should save me the legal troubles))
4) Post often (The world should constantly be irked with your presence!)
5) Add photos (Remember, how much you hate text books without colourful pictures!)
6) now, now, now....Rest are going to be my trade secrets. Hah! what did you think, I'd hand over all my research to you for free! Not so easy!

So to all you novices out there, Learn from me!!! Sigh, probably I should reserve that for the day I get a 100 followers (if ever!). But did I tell you, I'm a dreamer. I dream with eyes wide open. And you know what I'm seeing right now, I see myself with 1639 followers, I see people waiting for me to post, I see myself oh so successful! Come on (*puppy eyes*) you have to help fulfil my dream, together we will create a better world blog, and a happier world me!

Now, I would like to solemnly swear that I am a useless madcap, who is here to bore you to death. And if you dare to leave me without comments (and good ones at that too), you're dead meat! (just kidding!) (or am I?)
Well, enough for tonight! :
Smile your biggest smile (and write me a sweet comment :P)
JustAnotherGirl!

The blabber blogger! :p

Hello again!
Sigh! The last time it had at least been 1 comment(s). Now, I'm down to 0 comment(s).. :(
Which makes me muse, why am I actually here, to tell a tale no one wants to hear, to relate a story that has no plot, to describe a life so mundane...And then I say to myself I'm here not to get the Oohs and Ahas of the world (though that indeed is the dream!...shhh!). Now now, don't you worry I'm not giving one of the here-for-a-greater-purpose shit! I am simply here cause it's 2:00 in the night and sleep is so far away, I'm tired of waiting for her to come. So that's what brings me here...at least I can blab, right!

When people do special things for special ones,
I wonder if I am special enough for someone,
I read mushy novels and begin to dream
Of one who'd sweep me off my feet,
I hear gooey lines and I hope
Someone'd say them to me
And yet, I say I hate cheesy!
And that makes me wonder if I'm all fake!


When people act all jealous and envious
I raise my eyebrows at them all,
When people act all superior,
I look down upon them,
When it's other people,
I'm the preacher.
And yet, I think I'm better than she!
And that makes me wonder if I'm all fake!


My friends sometimes call me Swami Vivekanand and sometimes Sanki (translation: insane!). So either I have Multiple Personality Disorder or else sometimes I'm just not me.., wondering which is worse!

If you have made any head or tail of what I wrote today, hats off to you, cause then you already get me better than I get myself (or else you're just as insane as me) !!!

Kudos for putting up with the blabbing,
Keep smiling,
JustAnotherGirl!

Monday 28 May 2012

A new beginning!

Hello everyone!
   Five months and ten days ago, I had created a blog with really high hopes! A girl, who lives more in her fantasy world than in the real one, I had thought my first post in my first blog would be an overnight hit, and I'll have a hundred followers! Clearly, that remained a dream, and JustAnotherGirl, remained in oblivion!
   As a visit to http://attemptingtoshare.blogspot.in/ would let you know I disappeared after one post, obviously discouraged to see only 1 comment (that too had literally been begged for!). And when suddenly today, I feel inspired to post more, I realise I have forgotten my password AND my username! Bottom line is, JustAnotherGirl had to tun into ApprehensivelyYours!
   But I remain much the same person, with more or less the same fears, the same dreams and the same joys. However, five months is a long time, especially in the life of a teenager! So, yeah, these few months have made me older, and wiser, or at least I like to please myself by thinking so! A shiny new badge has been pinned to my lapel, new responsibilities lie on my young shoulders, and my face glows with a new pride, a new sense of achievement. The post of Head Girl however can never take my old tag away from me, for I remain as always just another girl!
   Sometimes I see juniors look at me with awe and regard, and it sure does boost my ego! Seven years ago, I had been that eager junior hoping to get the much sought after badge one day. And in so many of those bright eyes I sense the same enthusiasm. Very often I am asked the question as to how it feels pinning that badge to my uniform everyday, and most often I'm lost in a web of emotions. Real life experiences cannot be summed in a couple of words. "Feels great!" is not enough of an answer (although that is what everyone gets from me). But in the dark of the night, when I ask the same question to myself, I'm more honest. "With great powers comes greater responsibilities", and sometimes those responsibilities get the better of you, you want to succumb to the pressure, it gets tough to hold up. It seems so much easier to quit, but then wouldn't I be called a Quitter?! And that word has an awful ring to it. Most often, it's enough to get me thinking straight! Then, once again pinning the badge in the morning 'feels great'!
   May be we don't always need the philosophies of great men to inspire us. Sometimes even negative words do the trick! Works just right for me at least!
   So, any of you thinking of never reading my blogs after this one post? You Quitter!
Hoping this saves me again,
Gladly back
JustAnotherGirl!